Only for Us: Only Colorado Book 6, JD Chambers

Three souls that are lost.  I liked all three men despite the inauspicious beginnings with each combination of the three, but I think it's Jay that stole my heart most solidly.  Despite how difficult it still is for me to wrap my head and heart around menage relationships, this particular grouping really felt right.  Each one had something to offer the partnership and their roles played a big part in keeping them together at various turns in their relationship journey.

The Only Colorado series is a tangled web of relationship connections from the past that all work out to some amazing partnerships.  Only for Us brings us full-circle and concludes the series on a high point with all the love, kink, and sexiness that we've come to expect from the series.  What makes this book special is the complicated dynamic and the sweet love and forgiveness that keeps these men together.

Cameron's grief isn't really discussed as it's not really the main focus of his part in the story.  His part is more about moving on from grief to new love and self-discovery.  When Jay gives him some truly insightful advice into learning just who Cameron is on his own, it brings him Boone.  Using the opportunity to introduce Boone was a great vehicle, but it didn't really flesh out Cameron's situation in a satisfying way.  It made the jump into the more complicated relationship feel a bit shallow, not that it was superficial, just that it lacked the depth on his part that would have made his role really sing.

Boone I felt for.  His struggle was a difficult one and the prologue perfectly captured just how tortured and conflicted he felt.  It made him more pitiable than reviled from what we learned about him in Only Keep You.  His role felt pretty juvenile for the most part, but it worked as a way to bring out the protective instincts in Cameron and Jay.  I think Cameron and Jay could have been totally fine on their own, but Boone's specific needs catered to their very different desires in how they show passion and love.  It really worked as a whole with the way his unique qualities were integrated.

But it was Jay that truly captured my attention and my heart.  He was complex in the differences between his presentation and his heart's true desires.  I found myself frustrated with Cameron on many occasions because of how blind he was to what Jay needed.  Jay felt like the real adult in the relationship even if he needed Boone's perspective to help him find the best solution to one of their issues.  In the face of Cameron's "put-together" life, it was Jay's maturity and well-rounded character that stood out most.  I also ached for him when we saw his vulnerabilities.  There wasn't a moment that I was disappointed in him, no time I felt that he could have been or done more.  Thankfully the other two men could give him what he needed and craved.

This story felt quicker than the others of the series in terms of relationship genesis to the ending, partly because we've got three perspectives to cover and all their complexities in roughly the same amount of pages as the other couples in the series.  There were quite a few foundation-building moments that felt skimmed over making it feel as if Jay really was going to be left out despite being the perfect fit for their group.  It was his greatest hurt and yet never truly addressed even if things ended on an incredibly sweet and sexy note.  Their journey was rather simple without a lot of angst and the exploration of their kink wasn't as in-depth as the other books in the series.  Focusing instead on the way these three men fit together with some spiciness in the bedroom (or anywhere else they can get up to their steamy shenanigans), the story was sweeter and a great wrap-up to the series.

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"Just once, I'd like to be part of my own couple, and not the third wheel."
Jay Howard might look like Tinker Bell, but he's looking for a man who will accept all facets of him - from flirty brat to dom top. With all his friends happily coupling up, Jay fears he'll never find a man to love, much less one who loves all of him.

"Once again, fate has decided to have a laugh at my expense, because standing right in front of us is the only man I've never been able to get out of my head."

Silas Boone III has been punishing himself for years for his younger self's screw-ups. Just as he finds someone with the power to make him trust himself again, he's confronted by a face from the past - one that reminds him of his mistakes and all the possibilities he once dreamed could be his.

"I'd found the love of my life. Most people don't even get that much, so it felt selfish to look for more."

After his boyfriend of nine years dies suddenly of a heart attack, Cameron MacGowan moves to Fort Collins for a fresh start. What starts as simple flirtation and easing back into dating turns into a tangle of longing and wanting for two totally different men.

Can Jay, Boone, and Cameron navigate through the treacherous waters of the past to reach a future together?